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Reality
Deep in the abyss of my mind. Twisted thoughts do prevail. My body is but a hollow shell. Left is the emptiness of
life. Created to exist, for what? Why are we on this earth? To grow old and simply die. Days filled full of nothingness. Wandering
in a dazed state Caring is a wasted emotion. Letting our hearts feel briefly. When in the end we all lose. Death it stalks
us daily. Teasing us with temptations. Promising happiness falsely. Yet, we trust for what purpose. Why even try to be happy.
There simply is no reason too. For happiness is a fantasy. It exists only in our dreams, but then what is reality? Are we
awake now or is it our dreams that are real? Tell me do we really know..
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Check-mate
Glancing
around at the memories that surround me. Legacies of a life wasted for I never really existed. I was a just pawn set in this
world of make believe. Each time I was moved another blocked the real me. I was a game piece that fit into the lives of others.
Always a sister, a daughter, a wife, a mother, a lover. All I ever really wanted was to be loved for me. They molded me into
what they wanted me to be. Worst of all I let them I became the perfect pawn. No one seemed to even notice the tears I shed.
They did not see the pain or torment I was feeling. Now I am wondering as my life ebbs slowly away. Will they notice me now?
Will anyone really care? Redness covers this perfect floor as I watch amazed. I wonder who will clean up this mess not me
I know. Sighing I cant seem to remember all their names now. Its getting cold in this perfect world they have created. For
the first time in my life I dont feel any remorse. Funny I do not even care if they will not like me now. I have heard that
your life flashes by before it is over. It would not be my life for I never really existed. Leaning back now to weak to sit
any longer smiling. Why I wonder why didnt I have the courage before. This is not so bad after all, I cannot seem to feel
a thing. It is so different then I thought it would be so peaceful. I wonder who is going to clean all this up not me. Who
is going to be the next pawn? Who will replace me? Oh god I dont care anymore I found freedom at last. It is getting dark
here in this perfect place called home. Their to late they cant move this pawn as they want to. What will they do now? Who
will hold them all together? Damn even now I worry for the others in this game. No, I have had enough I will not be the pawn
anymore. Let them move on their own I am too tired to even care. I can hear my own laughter from so far away now. I think
it is the first time I ever really laughed for myself. Oh dear lord I pray, forgive me I could take no more. Take my hand
guide me to your realm. I am not afraid. At last my eyes close, my breath grows still, I am free. As my soul begins too float
heaven ward I whisper ... Check-mate..
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