Remembering....

The words lay before her eyes. No sound only the beating of her heart could be heard. She read of the pain and the anguish that was typed on the screen. Even after so many years had past she still felt the tears start. Rarely did she let her thoughts travel back to that time. Had she really been that sad? Was that really her writing? Was she that person that wrote such torment? In her heart she felt the stirring of remembrance. God how she had loved. So much passion so much desire. Yet she had been foolish. She had opened a world of tragedy. One she created with her own mind. As her tears softly fell she pictured that world. The one where she had felt safe loved. Her heart felt the anguish even as she sat there hypnotized by the screen. She had known deep within her soul it wasn't real. Only god she needed it to be. She needed the love the understanding the power of him. Her eyes had become blinded from the truth. She didn't want to listen to her soul. She prayed that she was wrong. Yet she knew her world would one day come crashing down around her. So long ago and still this site made her cry. As she sat back she wondered why she had let it all happen. The answers really never came thou. She knew she had been used but she had used also. She had taken all that was given to her. One could call it a mutual need. Leaving that world that fantasy had been the hardest thing she had ever done. With a sigh she whispered "yes I had loved and in some small way I was loved". She couldn't blame him for all her pain. With a tender smile she looked one last time at this place of words. As the music played see clicked to add one last page.. Her smile grew bigger her heart echoed the words and she typed them out... Ah but the past is the past and I have grown. For I now I love the person I have always been. Even if she did get lost a few times. She giggles.. then closes the site.. along with the past.